Those feelings of joy mixed with sadness

stalking you while smiling to the world,

while crying to yourself.


No one understands. Probably no one will ever do.

Is that enough reason for distress?

Is there still something you might not have recognized?


I just want to be wrong.


Always expecting the worst.

Never expecting someone to be good enough.

Everything will come in the hardest way possible.


But I’m tired. I’m physically and emotionally exhausted.

I just should forget about myself and my feelings. And keep going.

Like always. Get them out of my way…


This time I just want to be wrong.

But I won’t be.


So the sadness mixed with joy will keep stalking me

while I’m smiling to the world.



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